At The Zenith Of My Life

At the Zenith of My Life

When towards the end

Darkness besets me

Darkness unlike another

The womb life giving

Reminds me of

Light’s blinding madness

Escape beckoning.

I am my mirror now

Knowledge reflecting,

From every pore

From every wrinkle

Crows’ feet, laughter lines,

Each varicose vein

Each mark of pain

Is knowledge gained,

And it sets me free.

Sensing another light 

Beckoning across 

Higher levels of  darkness

I kiss the nadir ardently

Of my earthly dreams,

To touch the feet of life 

With love. To say adios 

With deep gratitude.

A sombre delight

A sweet lightness earned

I now reach for zenith.

In the gathering, below,

Cries of bereaved heard, 

At departure of a beloved,

Now dear loved dream, for 

That's what those days seem

Empty yearnings, swift unravelling.

I am alive in each 

Lively spark that tosses 

Only my shell to cinders

Watch out for the innocent 

Lovers in the park,

None may tear their

Sweet joy asunder.

As at a multiplex

Five different dramas,

Comedies and satires play

I receive funeral wreaths

Scent succulent flavours 

From barbeque next door.

 

Party on, this night 

I'm gone, unconscious

In commemoration

Of life's gleeful song.

The universe open palmed 

Is offering alms

Sorrows expirations

As the living’s balm

Rejoice without guilt

And, 

And it's almost on my tongue!

Frozen shower of icicles 

Cream cones thaw in your

Warm palms. I leap in

Asteroid belts shower

Meteor dust, the night

Expiates in exultation. 

Remembrance is such joy

Hold lightly, it's a toy

New stories start each day

Immortal inner child 

Be forever gay.

Even your tears dissolve 

In salt sea of lives

Nothing melts me now.

Your misty eyes I see 

And again I will be

Included among 

All of you who are

Present at my mourning.

Now let me visit stars

On galleys of galaxies

Let me freely soar

Ardent evergreen

Inspiration of God.

I'm upon mountain peaks 

Peace snowboarding through 

Glacial valleys that lead on

Through mysterious wormhole 

Which brought me in

It will wash me out

Of Life's great choirs, its

Orchestral symphony.

Like tumbling waterfalls

Crystal palindrome foams

I mirror myself inside out

Bubbly flecks my songs

Reflect, breath taking 

Beauty bursting upon

One feeble breath and then

A world, is gone!

Without alas or sense of loss

Beauty’s fountain foams

Flips up, falling towers

Showers of light ethereal

Cascades in air.

Spinning this crazy coin

Moment’s delightful toss...

Believe me that body 

Was encumbrance 

Armour donned in battle, 

Diving gear to sustain 

Unnatural breath, till death.

If you seek true light

Rejoice like children ...

Clap and sound applause!

Death is deliverance.

I've escaped smothering 

Gravitational mothering

In forever's empty embrace

I'm in breath taking 

Free falling flight, 

Tunnelling through new visions 

Gigantic kaleidoscopic sights,

Flame of a mighty frame of

Time outside time and

Chilling grace and space.

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©Amrita Valan 2014