Thank You for Being

Thank You For Being

I am dozing off, for a  change with a smile -
Just a little bit of a grin of anticipation
That I shall enjoy  my dreaming state.

The  earth  has  been kind and merciful and  the hushed voice of love has spoken it's   reassurance
Its nice  to be touched on the soft spot of the heart  by soft hands for a change.

Let me sigh the relief and enjoy such absent hours of pain while  they're given.

Somehow I know if you're gone I'll be alright
And It  won't rain 
In my heart again...oft repeated unkindness can become cultured strength...
I have loved you
worth a lifetime in a petridish...
A crucible  of excruciating
Intoxication. ..

Should you leave again
I will content myself knowing
that all that was possible for me to feel for you has been
Out there in front of you.

I am thankful
you exist in this world
In
The same cosmic time and space 
And that accross the globe or not
experiencing evening to my night
Still in tandem
We both breathe
In
And out,
Our
Hope and fear and grieve and joy,
And cast our softest dreams into moonlight spun and keep the dreadful faith
That whatever happened
It was just as it should have been.
That if not us the Divine Ombudsman
Performed due diligence before
setting up our stage. 

I do not worry about intricacies
Like the depth of your feeling  the heat of your passion or the breadth of your generosity.
I care even less for something as trite as reciprocity.

These are what makes love feel-good
True...but they're not First Cause.
And
Loving You is all I take responsibility for.

The rest is spun sugar, colored candy Floss dissolving on children's greedy lips- a carnivores carnival. ..

If
Loving you wasn't enough
I couldn't have claimed I am in love with you.

All on its own
Its a warm heaven
A lighted ballroom
A cozy companionship
Of cheer and joy
A singular strength of belief in my worth
To love you like this
With no
Expectations.

I bow in awe to giving
and smile ever so gentle
At receiving. .

My sweet love
Perhaps only because of this
There's no bidding me goodbye
And Adiós
Is impossible
for us both. 

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014