Not Free

He is waiting watching
My heart speaks pleads  cajoles me inside
Go to him, say hi at least
Not free I say
If I look back
Let me turn to stone.

The heart cries restlessly inside
Ashamed of my faithlessness
I cry but I have learned a lesson in faith
Don't look back
If you do
You're not free
To leave.
If you turn
You'll become a pillar of salt.

He is watching the clock  now like
never before
I know .
Throwing more scanty pebbles of time at me
Five minutes with him used to   cost me before
Now this past one hour
He is the one eyed cyclop
In the sky
The global eye
Orbitting space round me.

My heart cries and cries. Kneeling in pain to accept kind lies.
My mind is a stony reminder of how he never heeded my tears before.
My heart the betrayer my mind saviour.
It's never really yesterday once more.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014