By Stealth

No no baby  No no no.
I am going to take it slow.
I know how you see me crawl
because I'm lying really low
But I'm not broken
I am looking at your letters  to me
Each letter word sentence
Sentenced me to this servitude
When love should go free.
Baby know that I know.
Reading your many meanings
In case you're letting me go.

Held at bay captivated
I have never been this way before
The more I find this saga over
I want you so much more more more.
But no baby no.
I will never beg
I will beget happiness.
If I can't make it with you
Forever inside a space
Crying your name
But in silence
I know how it feels
How it works
A furious shame
But my life slips by seeps through cracks so deep in my soul
If I could enter my source
And plug all the leaks
Maybe I wouldn't need your love anymore.
Maybe we're all open pores healing sores loving stores
deep inside our cores.

One day in my many parallel lifetimes
And mental timeframes
I will be impregnable fortress
The love I express will be free
Of need
Inexhaustible
Till then I will keep  it so quiet and squeaky clean
Honey you won't even know I've been taking residency in your soul stealthily
Like an immigrant of hope
Without papers of possession.
I am not a liar but I'm being a cheat
I don't ever put the weight down on my own two feet
And walk it.
But I feel weighed down
My face my throat my heart like lead
Tells me
The tones and shades of this love oppresses,
But honey this is ever the only love I have known.
God's Word is good.
His punishment and mercy upon my soul.
From far away the church bells toll...
 
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(c) Amrita Valan 2014