Giving-A Lifetime

I  told my friend Maya today how she superbly lives up to her name. As sadly I must to mine.

Happy because of you
Because you asked me
to give myself.
Happy No returns to me.
Dear wish me.
I'm cutting up a slice of this cake of life
I tasted only the edgy crumbs
I want to be more generous to me.
In all honesty I need to be.
So here you're asking me to be yours without a hope
Or if that's not okay
You're letting me leave.
My! That's so big of you
Wizard the spell you cast over me you cant dispel
The witching hour strikes true.

Have a thought the tears I shed
I taste them in my bloodstream
Screaming sobbing agonies
Don't do this to yourself

Have a care my selflessness
You carry me beyond such gracelesssness
I am immersing in  statelessness
I'm a stranger to
myself
Life is not  forgiving
The debts of past lives damning
I walk my way through blind walls
Bumping crashing into pain.

But I'm happy
For you, my life.
Dear maker?  let my lot bother none...

You didn't defeat me.
I celebrate victory
In immersing myself
Into Your wish
Mine is a
mere wraith
A
wisp of wisdom
In which I might live.

This lifetime
I'm for the giving
This lifetime
Is not for taking
See how I have accepted
The lessons life is preaching
Sweet
beyond your power of teaching
His designs fabricating
All the love you are faking
Sorry am I for calling it fake
When it is what I have to take
Just to prove I cannot break
Indestructible victorious sacrifice
In the lake of my unborn lives.

Slowly the Gods are
Whispering
"Vijaya" my name they're calling
"Amrita" was a challenge I
Declared
And this time
I am not declining.

My reality I do realize
A willingness to sacrifice
A salute to give, and abstain  from all take
Giving up my good just for the sake
Completion of the circle
The vows I did make.
This life was a gift offering
If name is destiny
And I am a slice of birthday cake.
So baby wish on me.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014