Want

Want

I want you
I do want you
And I only want you
my breath whimpering,
Faltering
please let me in.

I have heard you
I have only heard you
heard you alone
this past few weeks...

In my dreams before my eyes
I smothered your face in fat pillows
And turned your seeking face away from facing mine
Afraid that
in my  dreams
I would kiss you
Or
you would touch my lips.

Still you came
Like the warm blood flooding my heart
Heavy and troubled
Hemming my eyes in pinpricks
Of tearful hurtful devotion
Your visage demand worship without vision
I have spoken to you in fading whispers
spoken only to you in quaint plaintive phrases
My words are used up in your obsequious praise...worn out
to win you over.

Writhing writing the pain.
I dread you
I dread
your absence...
its breaking dawn but the sun is sinking out of my horizon.
My eyelids are a horrendous dead weight...
The day begins like a moan of
obsolescence.

I want you, even the you that flips my heart right back at me gleefully
I want to see
you
Begin your day with me.

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