Weighted

My tears are heavy  water
I cannot take their weight
The floor of my heart
Is lost
In the cellars of despair deep in the dungeons of doom
And disaster.

I am sinking
My thoughts are leaden knees
My love is weighted burden
Immeasurable
Measured
Drowning.

The water warbles
In curious hiss and gurgles
A choking sing song
Bittersweet sorrow
Croaking tales of Halloween
Sadness
No more tomorrows
Wish I to borrow
Half laughing half mourning
My Days of madness
Petrified dumb
Days mocking gladness

The cup runneth over
I smash the cup
The empty chalice
My emptiness
Upon your
Marble hearth.

The body's dead
The body of evidence
Points to expiry
At cutting edge
Of point of expiry
The soul released
Surveys
Insolvencies
Stringently curtails
Insurgency.

Moonlit madness
The  heart is laughing
Cackling witches
In my chests are
Burning
Leavens my craven pain
With dire  warning
Mottled bottled unrest...

End me now who enjoys my pain
Who knows when
Or why
We  cast the die
Of life
Relived
Over and over and over
Again

Who knows
If I will be back in town again
Reborn to redeem
The lost cost of pain?

Filling spirit into the corpse of unwary flesh
Willing once again
To
Display her sordid wares
At your unruly local fair
But buyers beware!

Heed the hideous
Caveat
Of the
Heavy heart
Anchored to the rockbottom
bed of pain
At start.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014