Feeling Sad

Wish to acknowledge Shelley Ajeedapoet Fowler for the line "Love is an action word".

Feeling Sad

She breaks down to the extent permitted...
Possible under the laws governing motherhood
Her helpless broods will
Brooks no interference
From hapless moods

And She
Will have none of it.
Nor will she
Brook any interference
From feel good factors or folks.

She who wants just one person's steadfast devotion and thinks
he's too fast for her.

But unlove her heart she cannot nor eclipse the inexplicable pain of loving.
And watching it go by unwanted
Is painful.

Is love ever a waste?
No it just rebounds and rejuvenates the needy
if you let it.
Love is the magnet which forever seeks North
And turns iron to itself.

And so
let it she will.
Her love is too precious
To be dumped because he trashed it.

Not to be able to lavish  affection on it's object
To watch him make merry with someone else is unbearable
and should be borne
with a sense of achievement.

No pain....no easing of the rain.

No joy in self punishment....but undeniable sadness
That she wasn't worthy of that
Heart stopping soul healing moment he shared with someone else.

She won't.
Overthink love. ..
"Love is an action word"
To be shown not felt.

I will not deny you in my heart.
Just because you don't have me in yours...
And you're right my love and welcome to go astray...
If in your heart I found no place to stay...

Do not stay my love.
Make memory pungent with loss
So that when it ceases
I'll know my gain.

This is all so  sad...I am feeling it.
Feeling a bit  better just admitting it.

And if I swore, I guess I would say damn it.

But I don't. ...Under duress
I curse no one....
Not even myself....

Life is listening  for just such words as these....to harness the the force we spent...

So Life... smiling right back at you.
I am glad to make your acquaintance at any or all cost...

And  oh yes...
Life...?
Glad to have met you
Without any false pretence.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014