Fibbing

They told me I would find you when the time was right.
They all forgot to mention that I would have to fight
It's been a nightmare in what began like a dream
Baby can you hear it in the throttling of my screams   
I'm growing up
still while I'm going down
Glowing mesmerizing till the arrival of dawn
I am radioactive living my half life every thing I emit
Corrodes from inside
I'm giving away my own self
Laughing like an immortal elf
I'm immaterial  not the real deal
Ephemerons that time will seal
Till there's nothing left to give
It's so over baby please forgive.

Now my poet my pretty boy
It's over so let me accuse
A plot a ploy or playing coy
Blaming you is a scornful ruse. ...

Why couldn't you be a little cheap
The price you set is far too steep
Why couldn't you be a little deep
And find my squander worth the keep?

Baby I'm fibbing I don't love
You at all
I just need you want you
at my beck and call
I feel like loving you
I am just trying to feel
I feel like I am finished
I'm still working out a deal

I'm living to hope
I'm still hoping to live
I am living in love
I'm still loving to give
I'm radioactive
I radiate my being
Let me give you all my fears
Cities and corpses
The agonist in tears
Let  me show you
The hell that is defeat
Your applause the halo
I wear it like a sheath

You're understanding, this is just not right
I wasn't told that my hero would take a bow
and shy away from the fight.
Very few are brave and courage is just a myth
Cowards aim for treason  and torture then soothe to appease
Love like a gameplayer game plan is to tease
If you are in love like that  love is up for lease

True because a man is made strong to endure
True because woman is soft but pure
True a love that is firm and sure
Then the world cannot be its funeral pyre
And all you throw at it becomes
Kindling for its transcendent fire 

Tune in if your song is in harmony
Be sweet breath into my flute
Though
Life is a mad music that
Wrings blood out from the wood.

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(c) Amrita Valan 2014