Fearful Fall
Trepidations, palpitations
Streaming free fall
Clairvoyant consciousness
Carrying me down
Where hellish depth ends
Bottomless pits begin.
To the edge of fear
Where fright is naked before night
The darkness begins to foam and swirl
Smoky fetid demon breath.
I catch a break, some serial lifeguard god
Catches my fall for a heartbeat.
Desperation halts heartbeat.
I stall for time! Even the nightmare pauses
Its rerun reel. Grins. Begins.
The precipice yawns, its maws
Reopens, ghastly recurring infinite loop,
Too late, screams echo down the spiral
Bottomless chasm open into unending chasms
The never ending loop of reliving all lives.
Indeterminate minutiae specks the in-between.
I turn searchlights on my soul, supra scanning
For pellucid design. Senselessness is throwing an orgy
Party down the back end street where lamps flicker
And shop lights show ghost ships sailing nigh
Blinking bright halos of angels treading nightmares’
Unabridged waters.
I torch my seared eyes, tired x-rayed meatballs
Till the inevitable mired lighthouse turns its
Gloating evil eye, revolving upon mine.
Mordor has many names
And Mordor, has multitudinous eyes.
Mordor is mosaic visioned
Mirrored million times.
I have been flash frozen
Flying in flagrante delicto
Into hell’s downward descent.
Now waiting, cowering in terror
Of some unavoidable hit list, where
My futile birth portends my death.
For death dealing mercenaries
Blind visionaries piloting planes
And prophetic madmen, who utter death threats
Issuing warrants and license
Pontius Pilates who wash their hands of blood
With an easy elegance, offer me up as kill
On first, last and limitless strikes.
No escape except the imminent present.
No future but as star of Methuselah
Older than our creation date.
Watch on, warriors Gods of multitudinous arenas
Angels in arms, nightmare of Gods infamous permit,
Our cohabitation in halls of abomination.
Lions lie with lambs, jackals prowl, where rabbits hide in snake holes.
Kill human reality
With such chilling dreams.
